There was a time I would walk into a store and casually look at things, and buy something that I swear I would never have thought of buying in the first place.
And, I would listen to music that is not my cup of tea, because I stumbled upon it, and end up actually liking it.
I would go to a book store looking for something, then forget why I was there in the first place and explore the cover of books from different genres.
Now, it is so hard to break out and do something random even if I want to. I will tell you why.
YouTube has got my mix of songs. Even if I choose a song that is different from my usual style by taking some effort, it reverts to my usual list of songs.
If I ever look at something to buy in Amazon or any e-commerce site, the ads keep popping up everywhere I turn. Stop following me Google and Facebook!
Worse is the suggestions; people who bought this, also looked at these two things. And, I am like okay, go on, typecast us. Then, Facebook and LinkedIn think that I should connect to some people because we share similar interests.
And, if I accidentally I have my location on; Google says I have to click some pictures as apparently it is a popular place to do so and tag ourselves in.
The other day, I had a mini heart attack. I saw a private photo of mine in Facebook that they took the liberty of posting themselves, and I was hyperventilating for two minutes, because I did not see the disclaimer that only I can see this.
I miss doing something because I want to, and not because I need to. I want surprises, not suggestions.
I want to discover something new, not because it is trending.
I miss serendipitous encounters.
Apparently, someone said “Life is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences, but rather it is a tapestry of acts that culminate in an exquisite, sublime plan”
But right now, I feel life has become painful stalking from all sides